The following is an excerpt from a journal entry I wrote earlier this week about the above said topic.
26 December 2011
Thank You for allowing me to witness the sunrise and sunset of another blessed and beautiful day. It’s almost 10 PM and I’m getting ready to go to bed. Usually I’d be awake for a few more hours, but I have to do a better job of taking care of my body. Getting adequate sleep at night will do the trick. Anywho, it feels wonderful to have this moment to share my thoughts with You. It’s nice to reflect upon Your grace and mercy. You have been so wonderful to me. I don’t deserve Your blessings or unconditional love, Lord, and I thank You for all that You’ve done for me in spite of myself.
I would like to say a prayer, God, for every living creature on this planet. I would like to say a special prayer for me because I am in need of Your Holy Spirit. Earlier this evening, I wrote down my goals that I would like to accomplish in the new year. My 2012 primary goal is to live an abundant life that adheres to the following principle: take care and be blessed. I would really love to do so but there are certain aspects of my life that are preventing me from doing so. The main problem I have is being able to forgive others who have hurt me. This is not an easy feat for me. I do hold grudges against folks from former coworkers, friends, romantic partners, spoken word poets, and relatives.
Please forgive me, Lord, for harboring these negative thoughts and feelings. I don’t know how it will happen, but somehow I will learn to forgive and move on. I would like to ask You to forgive those who have intentionally or unintentionally hurt me. I would like to also ask You to forgive me for the things I have said or did to intentionally or unintentionally hurt others. After all, how can I expect You to forgive me if I can’t forgive somebody? Also, it’s not healthy for me to live my life in this manner. I am faithful that You will intercede into my spirit so that I’m able to heal, forgive, and love again. Everything shall fall into its proper place and perspective according to Your will, my Savior.
In Jesus’ precious name I pray for thanksgiving. Amen.